with my veins churning into vials, someone else's family is leaning over me hiding me from the nurse's needle --my vision balloons, filling empty space with the sterile blue curtain cliff and the grandmother is telling me that my hair looks like lake ice, like blackberries, like her dead daughter's dishes and the grandfather turns to me, dirge-tempo, (i have been told that his cells are eating him but he is doing alright) and he stuffs my eye sockets with gauze